Love?

There is long long time I have didn't have this kind of feeling...
feel so unusual and scare...
feel like lots of butterfly running over me, flying in my stomach...sometimes it sweet, lovely...
but sometimes feel scare
sometimes just like adrenaline flush.....
some things like this.....

Awwww...... why is so many feeling all come together?? what is these??

can this back to normal? I thought.... I am always the cool type.. haha >,<
chill.......
everything going to be fine soon.....( I think ^^ )

Things that I want to get it for myself @ 2011 ♥

That a lot of stuff I wish to have, was thinking can I buy it for myself in this 2011!
hmmm... must be positive thinker! be cool! then I will be able to make it! oh yea~

Let see......
1st, Ipanema Flip Flop, it always look so cool and nice even wear it hang out at mall...

and it was always so bright in color and nice...
hmm... not really must be Ipanema, or just a nice flip flop ^^ but Ipanema will always be my 1st choice.

Coming up... 2nd a sweater.... from Giordano.

but I will still thinking what color should I go for....

want something special, but not that highlighted in the crowd.... ( haha... confuse huh? ya, me too)

then,3rd  I wish to have mascara from Majolica majorca, their product are really nice! love it much!

I think I will go for this really soon....  ^^

4th come to my face problem.. really have very bad skin condition.. planing to change my skin care set to Origin. ( was just planing...) heard that they really have good product.
( got to try it.... my friend was using it, hope get some good news from her ^^ )
I was thinking she look better, but she said she was not..... hmmm......well, let just wait for good news.

oh ya, 5th then my body butter, I was using Cranberry body butter from Body Shop , it smell have sweet and lovely, but It just coming out when Christmas season.
hmmm... think is time to change the flavor...(i dunno,  maybe SHEA body butter, it smell nice to me ^^ )

Just thought of....6th  CONVERSE shoe!!!

want to have pair of nice converse shoe! wakakakaa! :)
is nice to wear something casual...
( in my closet.. isn't have much of casual thingy... gonna add stock! shopping time! )

all of that just think...
maybe out of some day, I will change to dress or heels... haha
Just depend on mood.....hope it won't change that fast...

man......spending whole day, day dreaming at here...dumb...

got to go catch a nap... Tata.

Love much!

From.....

A good lovely day

Was having a nice date today,
went for nice movie today,
Sanctum 3D @ Sunway pyramid.
Director of Titanic and Avatar.

rate it 4/5. is a great experience of 3D

Then, just randomly take a pic of my greentea cream at Starbuck, cause the color look nice ^^

Look nice isn't it? it always my favorite ^^

love Green tea cream, it always taste so nice! yummy!

there is sometime special happen today , what it is?? ( hmm... I will tell it later...stay tune... ) haha >o<

okie okie, got to sleep... tomorrow will gonna bath for baby! yay! love seeing new born baby!

Love much! muackss!

Women are incredible!

After a long week at Maternity ward, 
is not easy, but I do learn something.. and guess what? 
we all pass "big boss" test, 
and get her sign in our log book! ( yes! another few sign.... but I was thinking when only can collect it all? that so much cross need to achieve! )


During my posting,


Looking all new born baby,
Looking at all mother...


really feel our women are really incredible! 
menstrual cycle after puberty,
then, if pregnant,
36 week of pregnancy,
during pregnancy, might suffer of back ache, constipation, incontinence if urine, cramping of leg, edema of ankle( and lot more...)
then the contraction of the uterus before birth,
then contraction of uterus after birth,
breast feeding for baby,
sometimes might have engorgement of breast,
crack nipple due to position or the way baby breast feed,


then, we have to give up our nice body, and said hello to pear look body,stretch mark that never disappear even a long long time....
gosh!!! that women!!! we all are super women!!
give all women a clap!! *

what a guy do? just put a tiny little sperm into women body, that all....


If, the women is lucky, found a lovely , responsible, husband then her life is happy ever after. :)


But, what if she is not??


She have to take care herself, take up the responsible to take care the kid...
work super hard and also at the same time have to take care baby?
how a women can do that?
believe me, there is lot incredible single mom is doing these out there!


They are really a super women!


But, there are still lot of women can't take up the challenge of being a single mom,
choose to end the tiny little life....( sad story T.T)


Please be appreciate life...  


I was thinking... A family really have to be ready to get a baby, all must be prepare( mentally or physically or economically)


cause you all know, to have a baby, really need a very strong economic support till the baby growth up, go to school then college... then is lot of $$$$$.


that lot of responsibility!
so guy and girl please think twice and plan..... k?


nobody hope and wish the new born baby came to this world with health problem, insufficient $$ support, malnutrition..... right?


Lastly, really want to thanks my mom to bring me to this world...
love you mom! you are really incredible!  
( I was never tell this to my mom, cause I am too shy,but I will tell this one day! )  ^.^


okie, that all for today,
got to prepare to go out today, yay!
chao~ ♥

Posting @ Semester 4 1st half

After few day posting in ward... feel like I am flies without head...
keep knocking here and there *.*


Of cause, I get a lot of scolding... ( even though is not my fault, believe me, is many time!) 
O well, what can I do? cry?


Na..... just feel like it was a game...
each ward is like a game field for me..
A Adventures Game... wakakakaka( hmmm... something like life4 dead, muahahahahaha)


then, I think... you all should know who is the Zombie? hahaha


Every ward had it dangerous zone... once you step it! you will get attack! and just depens on your teammate whether want to rescue you or not...
if they not, you will be.....
GAME OVER!!


That what I realize... after few day of hard work...
and get continues scolding....


I crap again.....


gosh! I just hate here.... some one just bring me out from here?
I don't like my social circle just this small....
Is BORING!!!


Hate it hate it!!! hate get scold... hate being so fake! hate wearing this stupid mask all the day!


I just want to be me! ( if I really be myself at here, I will get hang till die, y? cause this it the world at here!! world of women!!! ) man! is really so unbalance!!!


Just being crazy at here...
forgive me...
can't find place shout out...


hmm.... just feel like want to play roller coaster now, just shout all things out...


and I will feeel more relax....


maybe , I just being childish.... or selfish....
I just like fun, good stuff....


hate bring up responsible.... cause... feel is heavy......
( I already have a lot more on my shoulder) 


so, please let me have some fun time.... relax... before I have to face the real world after I graduated??? ( this wish never come true)


damn.... I really is crapping here! 


done crapping! chao~ 

too tired....

the nerdy me....

These few day was really really so tired....

until I can't feel my leg...

too tired....No time for blog as well....

 

Have to study for some practical Q&A section, hope I can be pass tomorrow... wish me luck!

Got to go... back to study... 

Tomorrow will update the new story... ^^

Tata.. Love ! 

Good morning!

Good morning from teddy ^^

Good morning!

1st day of semester 4 posting( woops! super nervous! )
Is very rare for me to wake up that early when I was on Noon duty today O.O


Went for my MRSA nasal swab, hope the result come out is negative MRSA.
( MRSA= Methicilin resistance Straphylococus Aureus. A bacteria infection which is highly resistance to some antibiotic)
I really don't want to under go the antibiotic treatment, hate eating medicine ( blek~)
Then, if i pass the test, I will be going nursery next week... love seeing new born baby ^^




oh ya, just found out a video on facebook, my secondary school choir competition.
if not mistaken, we won 1st prize that year ^^( The Music's Always There with you) 


really enjoy those day in choir, miss all of them!
every performance, every moment, every minute is a nice memory for me.

I was in the video, saw me? haha :)
this nice memory, and it will always be the best memory in deep inside my heart :)


The music will always in my heart ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪

Teddy teddy~ ♥

Just woke up look.. ^^

Is Sunday, finally a day for me to sleep till noon time after such long tiring day. 


Then decided went out with a friend today...


we went for a movie, Yogi Bear! 
is nice movie!is funny and meaningful...  should go to watch it...it worth!
rate it at 5/5 ^^

and guess what?

I get a teddy bear!!!  ( was planing to get one sooner or later for myself...)

I am so really happy ^^

really in love with teddy!! its from Lovely lace ^^

That my teddy!!

Look so innocent isn't he?? ^^

oh well.... should go to bed now...
 **hope I didn't catch cold, just wash my blanket today.. and it haven dry yet :(     


night! 

cup cake!

Last few day was so super busy for me!
busy for exam... and doing cup cake! that the selling project from my college's club.


is stress... cause, I did not have much experience of leading team ( cause I'm the vice president)
feel like fly without head... lost of direction...
all the management were not that good... ( have to improve! >,<)


The cup cake project is nice, lots ordering... but due to same mistake, the profit ended up not that high( was bit disappointed :(  )

guess what? the price we selling are just RM1.50 per packet ( a big cup cake and small cute one)


too cheap right? lot of my friends feedback is way to low price... ( haiz, should have put the price to RM 2 or higher) 


na..... just take it as experience... will do it better next time :)

all is our hard work...

look tasty isn't it?

is all handmade...... ^^

**hope to get some feedback from reader.... ^^

Exam fever!!! sem 4

I look so tired....

is my test paper again...

really hate exam, cause I am type of burning midnight oil...

every time when exam season reach, you will be seeing me like a Zombie, or panda??hahaha

All my physical clock will be damn mess up, pimples all coming out... skin condition get worst...

that me when exam.... nothing to overcome this... 

after exam.. really have to take lot of rest, do some exercise... hoping my skin condition will get better back...

(the pic above, i did edit... if not.. i will look like a zombie.. I m SERIOUS! hahahah)

just did two subject together today....

left 2 more paper... HELP ME!!!!

gtg... catch some sleep... then start my engine over tonight...

tata, muackss~

My valentine's day celebration

posted this late cause I been busy with my exam and stuff,


actually not much different.... just hanging out with friends..
at SS2 D'rich cafe (just beside BP petrol) have some snack( nice place, worth to go) , then we head to Ampang look out point for dinner...


Omg... all I can tell is that day everywhere is so super jams!!! 


took long time to reach destination....


here de picture I took, not much actually....

delicious Mushroom soup from D'rich  RM6.90
I rate it 5/5. Yummy

here's D'rich.. very nice deco, comfortable place for gathering and to relax for reading and stuff...
provide free Wifi too.

That my good friend Derek :)

Heaven @ Ampang look out point
man, that day is really so crowded!

Special table for couple... It charge extra duh...
hmmm... I wonder when I only can sit at that nice table... hahahah

Well, that much of my Valentine's day. No flower, No choc.... hahaha( no expected to get too...)


done here... see ya. xoxo

Smile

Smile?
I like to smile.... for me, just a mask to cover up...  from everything.
cause I do not know what to do to cover myself up beside than smile... cry?? haha, no way!


That too much I been through.... saw a lot of things...( is a lot)
hmmm... but I just try to delete the sad part as much as possible... trying not to recall or let it stay in my memory... all chase them out! haha....


Trying to act strong!haha! 
but sometime, I still hope I am that little girl I used to be last time, 
be a little innocent girl, hide inside a big warm hug, ignore everything cruel outside the world...
smile, laugh... from the deep of my heart...
cause there is always people to protect me from all of these...


But, after sometimes,
don't know when, all these people just disappear,
and I have to try to walk out from a big hug to face the real world alone...
Is hard duh.... is very very hard... when start...


hmmm.... I still walk through...till now....
well, means I am growing up...
I used to be a little princess in home( really is a little princess... I can get what ever I want last time, I never did housework before...I means this is long long time ago)


but now, I have to work hard to get what I want... be independent, take care myself and my family...
now, I'm not that little princess anymore..
sometimes, I just look back the road, I can't believe I just walk through... really is unbelievable!!! :)


well.... everyone also been to hard way, a rough road...right?


Just smile and keep going, learn to dance under the storm... 


I will find a way to enjoy myself in the storm... ( exp: playing water boat?? hahaha)


sometimes, really hope to find a place... that I really hope to throw everything away and just lying at there... watching that blue sky, feel the soft wind... just to run away from everything... (I think just will happen in my dream right? hahaa....) 


alright.....skip the emo stuff..
back to the real life,


I still will keep going, 
find me way to survive... grrrrr......


so, let put the mask back on again.... and smile to face the world... :)

lonely?

Really hope I can overcome this stupid feeling soon....
I really hate this feeling!
hate to be alone.....

All bout love...

is a nice song I found on my friends side...


hmmmm... just listen to it... is nice to listen..
 :) 

I hate this feeling!

好讨厌这个感觉!
突然觉得好寂寞,好寂寞...

Can't this stupid feeling just go away?

hate this! really hate this!

Hate the emptiness in my heart...

anything just to fill that up??

haiz...... 

Is Valentine's day

Today is Valentine's day... love is in the air...
flying with nice sweet scent ( well... cause everyone is dress nicely to class and with perfume.. hahaha) 
And can see everyone is like pinkish mood today... ;)




Was bit wondering, how will be everyone valentines?
lovely? sweet? sour? sad?? ( hoping everyone have a happy one...)


I was 1st celebrate with my roommate ( Yam) is hers birthday as well....
as soon as pass 11.30pm till pass 12mn ! hahaha... 
Actually is celebrating Yam's birthday.





have fun celebrating together :)
(hey... this video I made it myself, maybe will be cacat a bit... hope u guy enjoy it ♥)

hmmmm.... then bout my valentines outing...
going out with a gang of friends,
have lot chit chat-ing...
is fun actually..
Just discover this cool guy! is a friend's bf. ( he is funny! fu yoh, he said said out all the point in my heart , and is all true! shock man!!!!)
The detail, maybe just share the other time..


He is a good friend also :)
A good guy, both of them will be a lovely couple.. sweet!


the rest of the story continue the other day.... 
was so tired, got to catch some sleep...ZZzzzz


night....

A sweet Escape

Phew,
 has been carry my note whole day( I mean CARRY) = not much go into my brain....
I don't know why, maybe this sem subject is not my favor.


oh  well.....
Is Valentines tomorrow, all my friend are so excited( I means super excited!)
you know gals, all have to be perfect to be the look nice for bf, so my friend are so super nervous to look good( well, all my friend does look good! )


my point of view: all girl can look good when have confidence the shine from the inner part, it can make so much different ( I means the "wow!! " ) so girls be confidence k? I know you can! :)


well, where is my valentines? hmmm....( that a good question)
for now, I still haven find one.... I means "The One" , take time, I think...
take time for me to stand up from the past...
for currently... single is better, until I make everything clear.


But,can see that my mom are so super nervous bout this part, she wish me to get a new bf ASAP at the 1st day of CNY ( over huh??) haha.... that my mom, she is ... all I can describe is CUTE , haha , my mom is cute...


alright.... kinda blank now...
have to back to my study,
wish me luck...
love ya, xoxo :)

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小小的心事 2

what a night...
busy with my club selling stuff,
got a bad news from friend,
make my dear roommate angry ( accidentally, again?? maybe I should just keep quiet... ) ,
didn't study at all again.....( again??)


wow..... 
why all stuff just can't go smoothly?as planned? 
lonely feel, lonely night again?
Just suddenly thought of,
is has been long long time I did not talk on phone with some people before sleep,
I used to do that last time... is hard to get used to it... hmmm... but,
I think I had over come it.( I think, haha) 


Actually, I really have some expectation for this weekend...
A present, A card, A wish, A long night talk...
hmmm.... seems just vanished..
(maybe I can just take it as good side, means I should focus on my exam!!!) :p
oh well, maybe I will. (Just maybe...)


Is time to stop at here,have to back to my revision then sleep...
if not I will soon group in PANDA family... (O.O)

STUDY study STUDY!!

oh my god! can anyone tell me why semester 4 subject is so so so boring?
I really hardly to find some interest in this sem!
Obs and Gynae , genital urinary, endocrine, sosiology , Malaysian study... oh my.....

In some way is interest to know that knowledge... but just not my favor...
how to pick up my interest in this subject???
cause my EXAM is coming!!!! is just next week... huhu  (T.T)


grrrrrrr..... feel so super frustrated bout this!
HELP!!!!


having talk from Kidney Unit's sister later, guess will be another bored sleepy class again...
hoping after that we have chance to see something interesting! what is that? 
shhhh.....
will tell it later(I think?) haha..... is just KIV, still pending... but I really hoping to see that!!! please......please please......  

小小的心事

玩了整天,
在夜深人静的夜晚, 都会觉得寂寞起来,好怕这感觉,
因为.
他的影子最近都不断的出现,
尤其是在情人节时段,那寂寞的感觉就特别的强裂.

我,
没真正的和我最爱的过情人节, 就算以前的感情,都因为一些事情而错过了.
不知道那感觉是怎样的?
我没有很大的要求,不用很华丽的礼物,不舍求美丽的花束, 就只是希望他, 回陪着我过这有日子.
但,点要求... 好像都达不到.

这,
都过了, 是该往前看,
可是,好像没那勇气再去投入一段感情...

看样子, 是没什么...
可是, 不管怎样, 总是站不起来再去谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱.

是累了吗?
害怕伤害?
我，不知道。

好矛盾噢，一方面在担心；一方面又很渴望有个很大的肩膀给自己依靠。
一方面在努力学习做个女强人，学独立；
一方面又可望可以做个小女人，依偎在个很大很温暖的怀抱里。

可能，这就是我吧？双子座的性格？哈哈！
就让时间来决定一切？？

龙猫，我真的很想我大大只的龙猫！

Happy day

actually is very easy to be HAPPY!!

A nice dinner with friends, then some story to chit chat or gossip! ( gal stuff) :)

then + a nice ice-cream( just McD cone) that simple! 

Always be at the bright side, haha.... although sometimes I will still thinking of / worrying my semester 4 subject. ( why? cause I am lazy! too lazy to follow up those subject, hmmm.... have to find my OMMM!! back...cause exam is coming!!! GOSH!!!)

oh well, is still a happy day for me...hahax! 

love it! thanks to my dear friend! Ho ma and Yam Yam :)

That Yam Yam!!

my Ho Ma!

Me, :)

Alright, is time to continue my stuff....( hope I can start study today!Exam is coming!!!)

Will continue to write my story later :)