The first time I am believing...the first person.... he leaved.
Leaved 5 of us behind..... and all of us trying to stand up with the pain he had left for us.
He took away my dream, my happiness, my family......
and it took me quite some time to stand up and to gather back all my broken glass.....
Now.... as time pass......
there was relationship that I believe that it will work, but till the end the is nothing.... vanish~
No matter how hard I tried, things just won't work out....what i gain? tears and thousand of broken pieces from my heart!
Some day, a person just asked me,
:" Samantha, after all of these things happen in ur family, do u still believe in LOVE? do u still believe in MARRIAGE??"
my answered?? " NO, I do not believe! "
I am tired of believing. Ya, it might make me look like a kite flying in a windy evening/ storm.....without string that control it.... for now, it might still flying high up at sky, but everyone knows, after sometimes.... if nobody appear and grab the string tight enough... the kite will fall into ground and brake into pieces.
if there anyone will appear and prove all of these wrong? and just grab the string on time before the kite fall??
is all about timing, right??
STROKE!!! How far do all people know bout it?
According to NASAM, do you all know that, in Malaysia , STROKE is the 4th largest killer after cancer and heart disease? it cause sever disability. And patient need a looooong and costly in rehabilitation .
And now all he stroke patient is getting younger and younger! some people even got STROKE even at their early 30! their prim of life! scary isn't it?
From what I saw at the center? I begin to feel grateful for those who survived and starting their rehabilitation and gain back mobility step by step. At the same time, it also remind myself the important to take care our love one and ourselves while we are young. Before all being toooo late....
Do you all know? most of the patient after stroke attack they need alot courage to regain back the confident and mobility? Do you all know? most of them are not that optimistic and are giving up themselves?
If not all these association, and all the volunteer worker... patient who are in lower economic status might still suffering the continuous impact of stroke.(muscle atrophy, fracture and etc...) and so... A big CLAP to all NASAM staff and volunteer worker who giving out their love and care to help strokee in all the rehabilitation.
Ok, so.... what is STROKE???
stroke is a brain attack. The brain controls various functions of the body and this vital organ need to be nourished by blood and oxygen 24hours a day. The nerve cells in the brain control all our 5 sense including all our physical and mental actions such as breathing, moving, thinking and talking. STROKE occur when blood vessel bringing blood and oxygen to the brain cells burst or get blocked.
so... once part of our brain get affected, it will affected our daily living activity...
it seems soooo easy for us just to feed ourselves, put on our cloth, doing all those things that we never think it will be so freaking hard when come to a stroke patient. Cause all of these need coordination, isn't it? so be grateful when you are healthy and can walk, talk, eat like everyone else. People should feel happy whenever they are healthy! Right?
well..... from what I learned in NASAM, their tag line are : the is life after stroke!
yes, it is! just have to be positive and patient can gain back their activity.
ok..... let temporary stop here, video up....
at NASAM, patient at there showed me , how to face this world positively.... they are strong! and beautiful!
although the road of rehabilitation is not easy, and sometimes it might be painful... but they are still continue doing it, to make themselves stronger and cope into our society.
At there, I also saw LOVE, love from partner and family who didn't give up on their stroke partner, encourage them, accompany them along the rehabilitation. That the great LOVE. *clap for them! *
most important thing, I saw GRATEFUL. our world now is full will all those desire, make people never be grateful with what their own and what their having. And turn up to be more greedy and having all the negative side.They never feel happy.
At NASAM, even though just a small action, a sport activity... can just make all patient face full with smile and make the hall full with laughter. Is so simple,to be happy, isn't it?
okay peeepall.... till here....
for more information, if u all interest, can just visit NASAM website : www.nasam.org there will provide lot of info...
Finally, I was on Red- band now... 3rd year student nurse.
I was counting the day to get this band since I was sem 1, piglet, when there is empty on my nurses cap.
And now... I was finally red-band. From green to blue......
tomorrow will be the 1st day I wear my red-band nurses cap. excited and happy! but it also means... more responsibility and more knowledge.... gonna study harder!
ok ok... is late now!
gonna go.... wish me luck tomorrow~
Hello people!!!! sense any different????
I cut my hair again! same... cut at A-saloon, Sunway pyramid.
Wait !!!!!! do u all feel I was back to my secondary school hair style??? gosh......
Just realize ~ ok ok... I won't cut my hair anymore... keep it back!!! Frenz! if u all see I step into salon! please STOP me!make me faint! or whatever! STOP ME NOT TO CUT MY HAIR!!!!!
ok ok... back here.....was hanging out with Crystal Chan yesterday.
went TGV for movie. having their new flavor : salted popcorn.
OH MY GOD!!!! is not even nice! Do not try it! I repeat! DO NOT EVEN TRY IT! you will regret!
ok.... let go on.....we watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part2. It is nice!
I should choose to watch in 3D, it will be nicer , I want to watch it again! anyone?
after movie... was all gals hang out stuff.... so... nothing much... let just stop here... and picture up!
Was trying cloth at Forever 21, I love all the dresser soooo much!
out fit of the day : Roxy top, bag from Top shop, jeans skirt, and flappy from Vicci.
hen will people start to learn appreciation? when they lost things?
ya, i think till that time, most of people will mourning in regret and sadness.
And this, including me.
Few years ago, I do have a normal happy family like everyone else. Well....that time, I was in teenage period, so u know.... I was being notty.. keep running out from house, ignore whatever my parent scold me... I don't even appreciate a meal with family....being rude.... haiz... worst attitude!
Till all things happen, I lost whatever what I own before....
then I start realize, how priceless all those things are! Those are things that not even money can buy back. No matter how wealthy u are.
Till the time I knowing that, how stupid I am, not to appreciate time and activity with family last time.I regret.
ok... example?? let see.... a meal of home-cook food,
I never think that home-cook food will be soooooo nice last time....which cook by my dad,
till now.... 3 years without home-cook food... for me, a meal of home-cook food is the best meal I ever had. oh well... time won't turning back, right?
That passed..... Now, whenever I had a chance to taste home-cook food from my friend's family... I will be very happy... :)
thanks all my lovely friends and their family ! love you all~ muackss!
So,what do I learned?
Just learn to be appreciate every minute u spend, slow down ur foot step, u will found that wat we had now are really wonderful *wink* I do appreciate what I had now :)
be happy and be grateful with what u own now.... that u will find that u will be happier person :)
beautiful fairy tales story show by my moral study lecturer today.
It is a beautiful fairy tales story.
It is a Spain movie take in 2006.
Original title are : El laberinto del frauno
Pan's Labyrinth (2006)
the story is about In the facist Spain of 1944, the bookish young stepdaughter of a sadistic army officer escapes into an eerie but acptivating fantasy world.
Direct by : Guillermo del Toro
Writer of the story is Guillermo del Toro
well , from the net, the website of The internet Data base over 187 548 votes, the movie been rate 8/10.
Woooooo! today I feel super excited! and here I am back to blog during lunch time.. can't believe I didn't take nap......
nah... have to settle something that y missed my nap time~ *yawn*
Suddenly have this idea of going Thailand for tour... or even go for more exciting activity! bungy jump!!! wow! I am totally mad today!!! hyperactive? I think this scene won't last long... very fast I will hide in my bed with all my bed buddies like a dead fish... doing "bed-min-ton " wakakakkakaa.....
out of sudden....
I miss all my family and friends at Penang! especially Wan Th'ng!!!!
well that she... my best frens :) hoping that I can get my leave approved then I can back to home soon~
ok ok... I know I am totally crapping here..... have nothing better to do, so..... that y....
oh ya, am going to enter a typing competition later... wish me lot of luck... cause all gals there are exercise doing their finger exercise almost everyday.... woooopppps! just gonna try my best....
oh ya! after so long time of break! I am back to blog!!! weeeeeee!!!
well... wat happen to me actually? MIA?*missing in action
I am just being busy and tired, time is like soooo short for a day... I got mountain many things to do...
What am I busy???
Hmmm.... staring at wall, listen song, surf net... singing Katy Perry [ Peacock]?? *wink*
I like this song. well... just because of the tempo n the melody are really funny n nice. not because of the lyrics..... so ya, don't think way tooo much .
what? I m busy n sort of time just to doing this crap???
nah.....delete the first part...
here come my recent daily life.... my day start at
8am till 4pm... Class - to that the whole day gone, exclude all the resting time, well most properly I will be sleeping.
after 4pm... I might wait for doctor lecturer's class till 6pm.
if class cancel,
I might go for 30 minute jog ( well, this activity I just newly slot in my daily schedule)
till bout 6pm... Dinner time.
then rest n digest, during tis time I will surf net, listen to song...
8pm... bath n laundry.
10pm... assignment and revision.
then mostly till 12.30am... I will be snoring in my bed.... hahahahahahaha
well that most probably my whole day.
So,what bout today?? exclusion!
I was lay in my bed, thinking and crack my head for tonight dinner...
was surprise when Sze Theng ( my dear roommate) said : hey, why don't u join us for bowling and dinner today? with my church mate? Yeeeeeppeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
I am happy to heard that! that y I going out today, cancel my 30 minute jogging
and I have good time chatting n talking with Jamie. totally enjoy it!
and the time just passed sooooo freaking fast.
well... then here am I blogging at here :)
oh ya, I just change my blog out look, hope u all like it...
what is S stuff? = Samantha's stuff
*wink*
Don't ask y I put my long hair piz... cause... simple reason: the piz look nice n green n fresh! :)
well... if got any suggestion from anyone would good nice :) any??
okay peepal.... gonna back to study now... my room n my desk is like a big mess! with all my note n unfolded cloth! tata~
