another turning point~

Is almost been 1 month, both of us been busy with our working life.... when we meet each other on cam.... you always look so tired... sometimes... I really just gave up n just want u to get more rest even I really dun want to....

I, really miss him so much......
I means time that we spend together.....

U turn to be so busy...... so so busy........ but u still try to spend time with me.....
I really appreciate it so much!

but seeing u... falling sick... and I am here.. cant do anything...It just make me feel so worst!
make me feel like I am the worst gf ever!

everyday...everynight... I really miss u so so much!
tears just flow out by itself sometime.....
I can't control......

everyday... I told myself to be strong and stronger....

but when u fall asleep... when I know I am alone.....
the stupid nonsense feeling come n attack me again!

make me feel so weak...
make me feel like just wanna hide in ur warm hug so badly! so so badly!

I try to distract myself.......but it bounce back some how....
well.... I admit I am a weak girl... not as strong as my physical look like.... I am super weak... super super ...weak........

I put in so much afford to stand up to be strong.......with the shaking unstable leg......
fall n rise.... fall n stand up again......

is another turning point... I know... we can make it right??

be strong!!!

is not that EASY

there is a quote once said, a long term relationship is for people who really want to be together...

is not that easy that u can hold ur beloved hand till end of life nowadays...

lots of conflicts will happen here n there.... is so easy for people to divorce nowadays, just sign a paper.... tht all.....

domestic violent also like very common....

guy.. if don't can't able to treat wife properly pls dun make tht commitment and make after marriage make the wife's life miserable.......

guy, pls be more responsible.....trear gals well pls....... we are not ur anger rubbish bin tht u can throw ur tempered in....

hmmm.... after seen so many case, heard so many story....
is really scary.......i means.. I do feel scary...

but I think.....

no matter wht, we still can hold it  still and keep going~

he get a job! in big company! n he said he gonna get real busy soon...... always double shift.....

wat to do?
just wait.... n be patient!

 I do hope there is happy ending ahead infront of us... ^^

well... pray hard for the best~!!

but I know, we all know... is not that easy........