Posting @ Semester 3 2nd half (day 5)

Passed this few days really so tired, and really have to handle a lot of thing...

Suddenly just feel that nurses really get control their life by their job, even though after shift and before shift they will talking all about the work non stop,all about the colleague, about patient, about hospital policy......
 just wondering won't they feel want to just take a break from all of these stressful job?? just a breath?

pass few days,

I take care a lot of old client, who really need our help... hmmm.... although how tired we are, once the bell rang, we still have to put on a smile face to attend and give our best care for the patient, cause if without us, how will their be? but I think, this situation just will remain in private sector, who have some $$ to admitted at private sector and they are really lucky...

Just imaging the other side, the ordinary people who can't afford all those expensive bill...and they have not enough care given... what will happen to them??

Is about 1 and a half year I joined nursing, felt that a family is very important.... when become old... they are the one who really stay and take care you, no matter how you are.....
there are really have a lot couple that really lovely and take care the other part very well... and never leave them alone....
really jealous.... and they really prove the power of the LOVE!

Posting @ Semester 3 2nd half (day 1)

Is end of Sem 3, and today is my 1st day of sem 3 second half posting.
There is a lot of thing I had learned from this semester... and is just not procedure and theory...
Just realize these when I step into ward,

Realize how senior I am,
Realize that I have to lead my junior which still very fresh in these field,
Realize that I have to have a good management of time to serve and do all my procedure on time to patient
when there is no one to help me!!!!

Let carry the blue band as we worth it!! :)

This time, is actually come a time that actually is no one beside me in my team, plus a fresh junior who really do not know anything, and need me to lead her...plus at the same time finish all my team things on times and also did all staff ordered.

I really do not wish that I will be the one who "blind leading the blind"

But today... I don't think I am doing the good job...is rather failed or nearly passed .
Hahaha, actually is quite funny that today is actually end up I was leading by a blind... then all the schedule was just mes up!

Well, look at the positive way.....
through the whole day hard work, I still manage to finish all the things.... *with a messy way* ha~
Actually,
Is good to have a fresh junior beside, cause she will always remind me that I have to be a role model for her..
and as a mirror for me :)

Is a really have to took it seriously to carry a blue band on my nurses cap, well.... just try my best for each coming day :)

Today grade : 50% * seriously have to be more good in management !!    加油!!

Learn to dance in rain...

Today is the last day in Semester 3 class... Is our oral evaluation day.
There is a nice Quotations my tutor share with all of us...

" Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass.
  It's about learning to dance in the rain." ~ Vivian Greene 

There's a lot stressful obstacle that we might face,
Through my life,I always will ask why and why...when I face all these obstacle, and just cry....
sitting there, hope for things will  good stuff, my luck will just drop in front me...being the one who always hide in the warm house, watching the window... waiting for the rain to stop... hoping the rain or storm will be stop..
I never learn to step up and learn to dance in the rain...

well, is time for grown up... life is keep going...there is always some stressful situation, always some obstacle obstruct the smooth way... no matter now ; or in the future...
 is time to learn how to take part in it , take it positively and enjoy it and move beautifully through out this obstacle...

So, let wear the boot on and start learning to dance in the RAIN~

Miracle of Grape Seed!

Just find out from article that Grape seed are actually healthy for us to share.....

According to the article, it has been listed in fight against Alzheimer's disease. 

The researcher, Dr Wang Yan-jiang from Flinders University in Adelaide using the seed extract to feed mice with symptoms of Alzheimer's disease over six month time, it show that grape extract prevented the build-up of protein in the brain that cause Alzheimer's disease and can improve brain function!

This result were significant with 50% reduction in the damage to brain cells in those mice given extract.

still take time for the scientist to came out with medication with grapes seeds extract...... so....

Although the result was test on little tiny mice, it also show that is no harm eating the grape seeds, so.. maybe we can try to eat it or swallow it instead of spitting them out, who know? maybe in the future it may help you to prevent Alzheimer's?

hmmmm.... eating grape seeds? actually it really doesn't taste nice when accidentally chew it when eating grapes....but should try it next time, Right???

Turn back the hand of time...?

If i could turn back the hand of time?
There is never ever time will be turn back.... Time just pass, without you notice it, and if did anything that you are regret, there is nothing will be turn back!

Just turn over and look what I had did for my life previously... speechless....

There is once,a friend said " if you didn't don't something you wish to do, you will never know it is right or wrong? and you didn't have chance to regret! "

Agree? Disagree? Just an opinion.

Time pass,
 people change and growth ,
 everything is keep changing...
Time is still moving, there is no pause...
Looking backward to feel bad and sad again?
duh.... Is time to look in front, look forward!

Maybe, did a big mistake last time, but what can to do? there is nothing to turn back the hand of time, right?
people always learn from mistake, we fall then learn to stand up again.... and don't repeat the same mistake.

Is a lesson, learn it, then stand up and walk again.... walk in a good pathway now  :)

Exam fever!!!

Tomorrow is my 1st paper of my semester 3 final paper! and all the though paper is coming!

and yet, I am not focus and concentrate at all!

There is so many thing flowing in my mind ..... 

is hard to be focus!!!!

well.......

Here is a treat for myself, if I do well in my exam... Treat myself go for a date with a cute guy at Chili's haha!!!

I must be dreaming!!!

Focus! Exam!! wish everyone in my group score well in the exam :)

A Lovely, Beautiful Song

手紙　～拝啓　十五の君へ～  アンジェラ・アキ [English Subtitles]

Have you ever have song that really touched your deep heart?
Today , with a very cloudy weather, is a blueyy day day for me .. but,
I just found out this song from my friends through Facebook.It bright up my day, and warmed my heart!
 I LOVE IT!!
I can't understand japans lyric but this with English subtitle with it , by listen to this song, reading the lyric, feel the song... is a very beautiful song! it touch so deep down my heart, feel warm in my heart.
Just close eyes while you listen this song, you will feel a different feeling. Feel the strength that the song bring out, feel the soul of the song, the melody, the harmony voice of the choir. Is so BEAUTIFUL!!

"For me as an adult, there is sleepless night when I am hurt,
but I am living in the bittersweet present."

"There's meaning to every thing in life;
so build your dreams without fear! "

"Just believe in yours own voice!"

meaningful lyrics.
The strength the song bring to me, build my dreams without fear, follow my own voice , and believe it.
Don't get defeat, don't shed a tears, Just believe it, and keep it going with SMILE :)


My life...., My future....I can do it, do it my way, without shed a tears! and I won't get DEFEAT with whatever that i face in the future!! YAYYYY!!!!

Eat, Praise,Love

Is my new blog title, why?? cause I feel its really is three magical things that can bright up my life ! and I agree with what the author said, and its really meaningful!

Best-selling author Elizabeth Gillbert may found her meaning in life by eating, praying and loving her way around the world.(Eat,Pray,Love: One woman's Search For everything)

For now, I will have my own ways to brighten up my life. I want to make it happy and healthy :)

Eat.
Everyone know food will make people happier. For me, a typical girl from Penang ( Food heaven), a nice food is very important for me! everyone have their own "comfort food" when they are feeling down or sick.why?
I just read an article, there is a Nutritionist Kristen Beck( beckhealth.com.au) said,
Chocolate
Full of powerful antioxidants called flavonoids is able to prevent heart attack and strokes by reducing blood clotting! Chocolate also can reduce anxiety and make people relax. What more?? people feel good when having nice chocolate melted in mouth that, release feel-good hormones!
so, Chocolate do work! :)
beside Choc, I am a Chocolate lover, but I feel lollipop and ice-creams is work well for me as well (*that why make me gaining weight!! haha! ) I feel that as long as you feel good with that the particular food is in your mouth, it will make you feel happy :) right?

Praise
For our Asia culture, we really don't used to praise people or praise ourself.( cause people will think we are mad! haha! xp) But, we do feel good when get praise right? then usually for me, I will analyse it is a praise or it means the other opposite ways?? (thinking way too much)
Here, Louise Carter a performance coach said ,
"People who get the most out of praise are who accept it. The best thing you can do for yourself is to realize that a compliment is the other person valid perception of the situation, so accept it in a good grace,[ over time], the better you become accepting praise, the more your unconscious mind will believe it."
read this from other article, it said..
These is the external source received from other... there is Praise from internal too, for myself! :)
Praise myself? Is really definitely a new things for myself. Cause I never Praise myself before..... So, To be change, I have to aim to praise myself at the end of each day and give myself a big pat on the back for all the things i achieved. Well.... wish that I can do that for the coming day :)

Love
When people are falling in LOVE, the person will look more happier and cherish.Agree? ?
According some research there is thing like that, Love make our body secrete some sort of hormone (serotonin) that make us feel happy and make us feel more alive!
With Love, this can reduce our anxiety and depression. ( that what I need! )
But, I am single now, What to do? change the other point of view... let start receiving and collecting little tiny love from my peers and all my friends around me. This will make things better, I guess. hahax :)
I still have LOVELY friend all circle around me and support me! That LOVE  from friendship and my family! haha...that will make me feel more alive .

Alright.. that my Eat.Praise. and Love. my own magical 3 base color to color my life in the coming day :)
will it work?? I hope will be a colorful world :)

Water

How important is WATER?
Everyone also think it is important.... but when it really stop supply, then only will feel how frustrated  it is when there is no water supply!

When i reach KL hostel for the first day back from hometown, I just realize there is no water supply! gosh! is so GERAM! I have to walk long way to my hospital to bath and to take water and then having all visitor looking at me with the weird look and wondering what am I doing there....with whole pack of shampoo and cloth....  know where I took my bath? At Emergency Department!! haha.... brand new experience right? I really took my bath at ED man!!  cool??

Just few hour... it already bring lot different for me... thinking how bout the situation at Africa? they really seriously lack of water!! and they not even having clean water...is all mud water. Is really a give for us that we will having fresh,clean water every time we open our tap water.We should really appreciate what we have to live in this environment :) and let pray for other people that is the though environment that they will having clean water in the future soon.

Feel happy with there is water around, and it moisten the earth, bringing fresh color to us, bringing fresh moist air for us...
imaging there is no water??
That will be worst ever situation!
To maintain this... let link to the balance of our mother nature....
Hope our earth will keep maintain it balance like that for a long long time.....everyone is hoping the same thing... but most of us are still doing stuff that hurt our mother nature, wondering when will be a awaking call for everyone heart ? ?

Pumpkin head! Halloween!

love this pumpkin head!
Originally uploaded by FisH鱼♥

hey.... passed Halloween night... what will you think about Halloween?
Be someone that you always want to be? trick or treat? party like non one business?

My Halloween night, having a extraordinary buffet at weird theme Halloween restaurant, clubbing.... chit chatting...

The special things is, there is friends accompany me :) meeting all old pal... chit chatting, looking all of them having fun, and all sort of costume and make up...

I think, to dress up in Halloween, is to use other point of view to see this world.... like zombie, ghost, devil angle? scar all people around u... then ended with a big laugh!!! make this bored world having some color and make decorate it again! with black and orange, spider webs, all people dressing up... isn't make the bored normal life bit brighten up? just like a fresh breath! haha....

I love festival, love holiday! know why? cause will color this bored colorless world with another bright new color! and change the decoration! agree?? Halloween will be orange and black... Deepavali? perhaps purple?? Plus, everybody is having smiley face when festival ! Make this world colorful again! :) That what life should be!

I am single

After this short relationship end...
 I think is a suitable time to look into myself and ask myself what do I want?


Do I feel lonely? yes, I do. There is just some emptiness deep in my heart; but what to do? life still keep going, i have to step up and keep myself stronger enough to face to challenge in my life.
Looking all lovely couple around me, I do jealous, yet I am glad for all my friend.. cause they are happy and lovely with the correct right man :) keep going my friends!


Is already pass 1 and a half month, I am trying to get used to it, with no accompany when I am sad, no accompany to crap long long story before sleep ... ...and the is no one to find when I feel l feel to...my phone just so quiet, haven been like this for a long time...   :/ 


But, 


I am not regret, cause I am doing a right choice, and thanks for all my friend around me accompany me for this period.. they make me laugh, put smile on my face again, they protect me... and talk with me... and they support me!! just realize after for so long times.... they really are good friends :)


How am i doing so far? is still trying to get used with single life! Is a not bad life after all, I can decided where I want to go, what I want to do, without inform and discuss with anyone....is good right?? is cool! 
Passed this period... I grade myself: 60%
I can over come all of this better!

Nostalgia......

Out of sudden.....
all the image and scenes appear in front of me......
from how we meet...... then start cat and dogs fight..... scolding non stop...
till sms and chit chating non stop......till the bill shotting up till so expensive.......
and then how the sparks come along and shock everyone around us...hahahahahaha  :)

Been a long way together....
doing all sot of crazy act together..... all the memory just sudden flash through my mind..

But , time pass..... we separated...
cause of there is a imperfection in a beautiful glasses that we blow it together....then i accidentally crash it into pieces...

There is no way that times can turn backward.....
and we just can keep on walking on our way to chasing each other future and dreams.....

and now....
we still is closest friend..... and i will always be at here wishing u that u can rebuild a beautiful piece of glass in the future....be a shining star in the future....
Good luck, my friend...

Stop telling me how i should be and who i should be!

what wrong with this world.... why everyone have to fix how a girl should act.... how a girl should dress.....
once you are out off this... people will take you as a WEIRDO! what the fucking wrong with them????
As a girl... Is really really stress you know?? all people around just will said... you are a girl... you shouldn't do this... shouldn't do that.... please eat less... please workout.... please make up... I AM REALLY SICK of all of this fucking complain and nagging!!! can't just you guy shut up and just accept how a girl is... and who the girl is..... stop fixing rule and rules telling what we should act! is the rules going to work???? why girl always get fixed in all the conservative mind....... why you all have to fixed that girl which a pretty... should have long hair... nice hair... nice body.... wth.....
I am who i am..... like it or not... that me....!

grief.......

Today class is so meaningful to me....the tutor teach us how to face the situation, what to do if the situation really come.... and also explain why patient will have that sort of emotion.... +with a nice music along the lectures....feel so warm...and touch...

  The tutor really put me in the situation.... i follow with what i wrote in the pieces of paper, i lost upper limb... i lost my bf.... and the things or person i have in my hand is my violin, my mom, and......he.....could i survive that time?? could i really face it? i think if i am that situation, i would isolated myself.... for century?? i love my hand, i draw, i play violin, i write, i do my job with it.....nobody would like to face this.....hmmmm.... really salute to those who are in this situation....

sometimes, feel like we really so greedy, we always not appreciate with what we have, we are born perfectly, beautiful human being.....but we always want for more and more..... how bout people who are not as perfect as us?? do we really think about it???

include me, i am not that good, sometimes i may have my bad side, although i really don't want the situation like that, but.... the mouth just can't held it.... all the bullet and arrow just coming out.....
Sorry, for those people if i really left a hold in their heart....

is right, we should grief when we really are.... hold it?? i think is a bad idea.... just cry, guy or women, boy or gals, it doesn't matter.... TEARS just help us to wash aways the bad things and will lead to happiness..... or calmness......

Maybeis better to let it end like this~

no more sweet times, just quarrel, just waiting....... everytimes also cant suit each other timing... that is nothing i can do.... maybe, just have to let it go....is better for u and me right?
you have your life, i have mine...
is really two different world....
you never understand mine.... and so as I...

moody... just same as the weather.....

 Recently so many thing happen.... my family, my relationship.....
is like nearly take my breath away.... and nearly make me want to give up what i have now and go back Penang.What a stupid idea i had right?
  
  Luckily, this friend, she hold me back... just knew that, actually i had quite a lot of good friends here... Maybe last time i was get blind or get block by something and didn't realize their appearance.That show how stupid i m. I do cry, cry until like i never cry before! and the result is... big big swallen eye on the next day! haha~


 cry?? i know, the tear i drop just will make me stronger.


ya, last time i was wrong to manage my family. now i know what i should do, is stress,is not a time for me to hide inside my blanket anymore! what to do? still have to remember i am the eldest and i have to help to support the family.. have to bring joyfulness to my dearest cute sibling! i never want them have the same way i had been through! cause, i love you all! no matter how naughty you all! hehex!


My super duper complicated relationship??i m trying to let go..... yet, myself already know that nothing i can do to safe this... perhaps... this annual leave, i will spend all my times with my family.... cause... since he appear, i got long time did not company my family de....my valentine? that maybe would be my younger brother! haha!


the coming road.... hope it will be smooth....give me a break.... charging first... then only face all challenges again....please please please.......

sweetie shopping with babe boo~♥

Is happen when my babe coming down for his KL shopping trip!
We went to Sg.wang,Pavilion.... with his friends...♫♪






























Is very less for us to shop like that... that few day when babe boo here... i really so happy!

He always busy with his life, like this time?company i go shopping? is very less to grap this chance.




Is nice to be in his big hug...  like a teddy hug!! 

am my babe boo look like a cutie teddy????
hehe.... 
dunno, just get attracted by him~♥

After the shopping... we went to ate something nice!!




















this is Snow flake! we went there after a day shopping!
what we share is lime flavour snow flake, it taste nice!
and i bet all the gal friends will fall in love with it also!!
is like sour.... but it bring out a bit of sweet from it...
and because of is lime flavor, make people feel refresh!


After the refreshing boost, we when for window shopping.


Then,


end up having dinner at....






TONY ROMA'S!!!♥

  This is our DELICIOUS dinner~♥

this is babe...'s steak with chicken tendon!! the steak!!! wow!!! is like so juicy and soft! and the tendon texture!!! emm emm~ awesome!

here is mine! 1/2 pieces of grilled chicken! make me so so full!!! is taste delicious also~ is soft and with nice flavor, just perfect grilled~

this, would be my favorite source among 4 of them...










Really have nice , sweet time together with babe and all his crazy friends at there...


At that day, also have people celebrate birthday at there also and all the staff sang the birthday song for them !


Wishing my 21th Birthday will celebrate at there also,
is just a wish...
but i hope it will come true~ 
with the people i love..♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪






After the dinner, we all plan to go home... but we are attracted by the view decorate along the road.. is so nice.....

with Sue(baby's friend)
and we also did some cool act.....like mtv?  hahahaha~

then, is me....

love this picture... hey hey, know? is my bf who think he has photographer talent took de....
but.. all the picture he took.... really look nice also la... 

outside Pavilion! the color contrast...all mix nicely...

Our shopping at that day end with this picture...  




























































this picture took by Tommy Teh♥

What just can't be happy?

Is it so hard for a people to be happy??
Why people at here... all have to be so frowning? look so sad...
Yes, i know is stress.But isn't the same thing? if you like that, u still have  to face the same thing...
why don't just face it with a better mood? then it will make you feel better.. make people around you feel better....


At here, this place... is very hard to see a people with a happy go lucky face~ a bright face....
feel the sky at here is so grey....so down.... so moody....
haiz~


Missed my hometown, cause everyone look so friendly.... and yet... i have my gang... my club... my activity... CHOIR! is just so enjoy the joy in music! sound so wonderful! it can't find back anymore.... at any place of the earth! cause that time, we are singing as one!!!


guys.... can you all just relax your face? like my crazy friends!! you just can't stop laughing in their group....Just bright this greyish place up a bit.... make it more colorful.....

What wrong with this world??

Can it be all the people living happily forever? why must have this disaster to take away million and million of people's life? 
  Blessing you all who at Haiti... pass all this soon.... 
  what can we do here? nothing? really hope can get into the international red cross association now to help them.... but... i still not a professional staff nurses ~


  Without this knowledge, i really can't or, we really can't do anything.... so, gotta study hard! ms*K u are right! we must be somebody in the future! and i wish too!


 My destiny, i will determine myself! so gambateh!
 hoping, being this field, we all.... can help to all people who needed! 
 Before this, we must study hard! to be a professional....nurse!!


  guy, for all the people who live peacefully at here... please appreciate what you have now... you really dunno what the hell will happen to each of us in the coming time!


So, for me.... i have this little tiny wish here.... but i, myself already know the probability and percentage of this wish to come true....


  Papa, i really dunno where are you now, i am hoping you can heard my wish...heard my sound.... all from us....  i wish u will be here... when chinese new year~ i hate to pass chinese new year with my uncompleted family~
can you heard my voice??
  i missed last time..... that moment..... when you were here.... where is my papa? anyone can tell me? or anyone can help me to find my papa back to me? i wan my last time papa.....who really care for us.....


i miss you k? i missed who you are at few year ago.... when we still in a happy family.... 
 please come back......


What wrong with this world???
Weird right? 
People at some part of the world can been together but get separate by disaster.... but at here... we are live in peacefully nice place... but got people choose the leave us behind.... why? anyone can tell me why??? why we just can't been together? i know.... what my sis and bro thinking!
 we still hoping the same thing... 
when we see others family can sit together and eat happily!!!....


haiz.....


people.... you all really must appreciate k? 
take good care of your family members..... no matter what happen.....


sad.... moody.... 
hate this feeling when every big festival come.... that why i choose to go back late......to escape... or can said is to escape to bluff myself......


what can i do???can anyone please show my the way? emo much~

sweetie sweet!!!

is bout yesterday....

my babe boo stayed at sunway area, decided to go for wake him up as a surprised...after i get prepared... i going out with a cutie lady look~ 

After that, we went to Sg.Wang, then babe bought me a nice dress that i wish for sometimes, thank u boo~

We thought alot of nice picture, is the first time, first day... i feel really happy since i reach here.... maybe, is because of him; bringing the good times come.....

♥╣[-_-]╠♥

Feel bad at the same time also.... why?? because i spend his money again.... that 2 cloth.... hmm....
complicated feeling... anybody understand?? 


After the shopping, we go Tony Romas for dinner.. wow! tthe steak there is awesome! Is nice.. the environment, the feeling... hmmm... i wonder, what if just both of us at there.... sure very nice.... too bad.... maybe the will have next time?


Wishing my birthday will having at there again... 
my 21st birthday.... how i will pass it? with very nice day? or just with instant noodle at hostel? haiz.... how nice if i can be at Penang that time?right? 


Today just till here only... gonna stop, having class later... 
share it when i get the nice picture...
xoxoxoxo 

love.....

kinda tired + sleepy at the morning session.... but till the surprised come... he kinda shock me out! Just like a big present coming! 

  Is so happy when u see someone that u pending to meet very long time! but... mixed with things that u do not wish to see.... the feeling is kinda weird.

  Haiz... deleted the unhappy things... let ZoOm to the happy thingy~

For the special people,

  Thanks for coming to find me.... i really so appreciate it. SO so so happy when meet u and once hold your big warm hand, lying on u firm shoulder again...

  is sudden feel so familiar again at the strange new town....that cold, greyish, unfriendly of the image sudden change to all so bright and colorful ... ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪

  i hope, this feeling will be maintained between you and me, but i know.. that is impossible for you, right? hmmm.... just depends on the decisions on dunno who la~ perhaps , just he will know....

by the way... i still love you very much... but also learning to let you go bit by bit....

confuse right? myself also very confuse....what to do? this is love... and it make people blind when it appear 

 

there is nothing call miracle.....

waiting for miracle??? wake up Sammie!!! what u waiting for the whole day? just a call and msg from a jerk????? a guy like him is not worthy!!!!!!! duh.... like everyone in this world know... but u are the one dumb and wanna to be more dumb!!!!
There is nothing call miracle and wish come true in the reality world!!! wat the hell are u hoping for??? a happy ending like a fairytale???? DUMMIE!!!! the SUPER SUPER DUMMIE!!!!!

Waiting.... pending.... guy, u know how hard it is???? how can u be so mean to me???? hmmm...... maybe i should really wake up...maybe.... slap myself to stop being a dumb~

Everytime waiting the story to become a fairytale...♪♫•*¨*?? u know this for long time.... since u are young okay? u being into this! why u still putting hope for a ppl to lend u shuolder when u weak? there is no such thing!!! be strong!! stop being a dummie......

how long u wanna wait till? everytime u looking the phone just will be heart broken only....
Today, the 1st day...... is not worth to change ur mood because of a jerk ! be happy always and all thing will go smooth ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪

Will it be the 2nd day of waiting dummie?3rd? 4th?how will my mood change in the coming day??haiz~
Who know???? Just he will know.....