another turning point~

Is almost been 1 month, both of us been busy with our working life.... when we meet each other on cam.... you always look so tired... sometimes... I really just gave up n just want u to get more rest even I really dun want to....

I, really miss him so much......
I means time that we spend together.....

U turn to be so busy...... so so busy........ but u still try to spend time with me.....
I really appreciate it so much!

but seeing u... falling sick... and I am here.. cant do anything...It just make me feel so worst!
make me feel like I am the worst gf ever!

everyday...everynight... I really miss u so so much!
tears just flow out by itself sometime.....
I can't control......

everyday... I told myself to be strong and stronger....

but when u fall asleep... when I know I am alone.....
the stupid nonsense feeling come n attack me again!

make me feel so weak...
make me feel like just wanna hide in ur warm hug so badly! so so badly!

I try to distract myself.......but it bounce back some how....
well.... I admit I am a weak girl... not as strong as my physical look like.... I am super weak... super super ...weak........

I put in so much afford to stand up to be strong.......with the shaking unstable leg......
fall n rise.... fall n stand up again......

is another turning point... I know... we can make it right??

be strong!!!